Tuesday, 13 September 2016

The beginning of a big journey...

This is proving to be one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Having the willpower to start AND stick to a diet and exercise plan is so difficult.

I decided that I wanted to start losing weight around about a month ago - it was different to the normal times that I said I wanted to start dieting - I really wanted it. I started to look at myself differently in the mirror - I was always considerably bigger than all my friends at school and at university, but I started to notice that I was getting even fatter.

It wasn't just looking in the mirror that made me realise. I was trying to take some bomb-ass selfies and it just wasn't happening, and I noticed that was because my face had got really chubby. Plus, I have recently featured in a couple of videos that my boyfriend has posted on his YouTube channel and watching them I kind of disgust myself. 

This isn't a post to make you feel sorry for me, or make me sound really over-dramatic and needy for people to tell me "you're not fat" or "you're a good size" (I absolutely hate that), but I'm just saying it like it is - I'm a fat ass. For years I just dealt with it, but now I want to do something about it. I want people to take photos of me and me not have to hide behind everyone to ensure you don't see the rolls through my t-shirt.

I take my weight in my stride, I'm a big girl, and for the most part I like the outfits I wear and how I look. I just know that I'd be even happier if I was a little slimmer, my stomach was a little flatter, and my arms didn't wobble about like a plate of jelly. 

So, why did I need to write a post about this? I'm hoping that documenting my 'progress' on the internet for absolutely anyone to read about will help to motivate me and keep me on the healthy side of things - resist that McDonald's cheeseburger goodness. Plus, if anyone who is trying to lose weight can look on me for motivation and tips etc etc etc. I would love to be able to help other people through doing this! 


"What's the plan of action?" I hear you all ask. Well, I plan to have a more balanced diet. I am so used to snacking so much throughout the day; takeaways when I can't be bothered to cook; popping into mcdonald's or wetherspoons for lunch when I'm in town. That is going to be cut out completely... if I want a snack I will have a bit of fruit, or something that isn't crisps or chocolate. I refuse to completely cut out foods that I enjoy eating - if I want to make a greasy fry up one morning, I will make a greasy fry up. I will just have it in moderation. For example, I had a bacon and egg sandwich the other morning for my breakfast, and I made up for that by not having lunch and having an early and small dinner. I'm not starving myself, but I was simply not hungry. Only eating when I'm actually hungry and not just bored is going to be very important.

Furthermore (what a formal word that is), I'm going to exercise a LOT more. I have started to really enjoy going for runs. I have no where near enough stamina to run the whole way, so I run for the most part and then power walk in between. I listen to music (which really helps), and sometimes take someone along with me for a little bit of moral support. I am also going to start skipping, simply because I hear from a number of people that that's a really good form of cardio - boxers do it, don't they? It must be good. I don't have the money to sign up to a gym membership, so I'm going to keep up with the skipping and running and see where that takes me, and I shall adjust it if need be in a few weeks.

So... that's the plan. Now it is on the internet, it'll make me so much more motivated to actually do it. I know that looking back and seeing this post in a year or so when hopefully I am a lot slimmer will be so rewarding to do. Good luck, me! 


WAIST - 35 inches
HIPS (don't lie) - 46 inches (I gotta big booty)
DEM BINGO WINGS - 15 inches
THUNDER THIGHS - 24 inches
BOOBIES - 39 inches
(DISCLAIMER: I did use a builders measuring tape for this so it's not really that accurate - student life means I have to improvise sometimes...)

Told you I was a big gal! I'm not going to put my weight on here because it is just very sad, and I only put the measurements on here as a better form of motivation.

Here's a little 'before' photo - excuse the quality of the photos. It's all I could find that was a full body photo of me recently. They're more for me to compare anyways!

So there we have it - scared and more vulnerable than I was before I posted this, you now know my goals. Here's to hoping and praying it all goes the way I want it to go!

Do you have any tips, nice recipes, or just simply in the same boat as me? Let me know!
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  1. Going through the same thing gal! I kno we can do it.. I related so so much to your story.. I'm defo bigger than you and jst gave birth to my first child three months ago. . Gained 4 Stone on top of being a big girl already.. its been so hard having to juggle everything and weekends can be so hard... I kno what I want and will go for it.. One step at a time��

  2. Wishing you good luck, just a helpful tip, its so much better (and easier) to have little snacks throughout the day to keep your metabolism going, even after having a big meal!